Blessed: My testimony

I believe in sharing my testimony because I know it was hearing many testimonies that got my attention….I pray sharing all my ‘dirty laundry’ it will only serve to show how good God is and to reveal His grace. His love is unconditional and unending. 
…Okay, so here goes…
I was adopted at 6 months old by two wonderful parents and raised in a Christian home. I began to make poor decisions in my teenage years by having premarital sex and drinking and smoking pot; I guess to fit in with society. I moved from a small town in SC to the big city of Atlanta, Ga. when I was 19 years old. I continued to have sex with my boyfriends and partying which led to cocaine which really began in high school. I always said that I was just a social user. I went to college back in SC at age 22 and still continued to party. At age 29, in 1993 I got married and I had two awesome and wonderful children, a boy and then a girl. This relationship did not make it long. In 2001 we divorced and I had two small children to rear on my own. My ex cheated on me and six months later he married his third wife. We never committed ourselves to God, to put Him first in all things and I know this was where we went wrong in the first place. 
During the ten years or more of raising my children, I acquired my own home and car and career and was doing well, but always struggling to make ends meet. My ex did not help and did not even see his children much at all. I dated and lived with a man for seven years after my divorce hoping to fill that void in my kid’s life. I was wrong. He was not a good example for them to follow and for that matter neither was I. We partied and continued to progress in that partying until about 7 years later, we broke up and I was devastated yet again by a man. I made the worse decisions ever after he left. I began to experiment with cocaine and tried it in every way possible and got hooked. Within six months, my life was over. I lost my home, my kids, my career, my car, and my freedom! I was in a county jail and was headed hopefully I prayed to rehab and not to prison. But in the lowest point of my life is where I not only found God, but got to know Him and truly was saved.
I have had many trials and much turmoil and so much to deal with since leaving rehab and jail; from a disturbed young man stalking me constantly, trying to get visitation with me kids and then fighting for custody, walking away from friends as well hurting and disappointing my family from the poor choices I had made prior. I was homeless a few times and jobless for months. I lost my mother after the divorce in 2002 and my father in 2009. I have had more than my fair share of bad luck and yet somehow I always seemed to survive and get through those times. I know without my faith and trusting God I would not be where I am now. I am now unemployed yet again but I am grateful and faithful because I know my God is always working even when we can’t see it! We don’t see the other side of the mountain we are climbing but God does! I trust Him to provide and find a way where there seems to be no way.  In 2012 I filed all the necessary paperwork to regain custody of my children and I regained custody all because of God and His grace, His Love and His Mercy. 
Never give in, give out or give up~ For with God all things are possible! I am delivered and I’ve got almost eleven years now clean. But more than that, I’m free now. I’m not perfect lol but I’m on my way to completion with Jesus. God is still working in my life each and every day. He puts people in my life that I help and ones that help me. I am never surprised by his love and blessings. God has placed a confidence (Godfidence) and love in myself that I have never had before so “Thank you God” for the many ‘True Blue Christians’ you have put in my life and for all the blessings you bestow on me daily. I have not come this far without lots of prayers and the help and love of my true friends and family and I thank you Father for those special people in my life and the joy and strength He provides daily. 
I’m now happily married to the strongest man of God I’ve ever known. I’m blessed beyond my dreams… all because of Jesus! I live to please Him and sgare what he’s done in my life with anyone and everyone. If I do that and follow God’s instructions…I will be more than good!! And so will you!